This is the story about the life of a woman changed forever by breast cancer.
This is my story.
From the beginning I have described this as a journey through rooms. Rooms that the Lord has gone before and prepared for me...Rooms in which I am never alone.


Why I write this blog...

To start afresh ...with a blog that shows the inside of my heart more...Who I am as a [real] person, a Christian woman, uniquely created by an Awesome God. This blog will mostly be about my life with breast cancer, anxiety, depression, and agoraphobia. Though these diseases do not define me, they are a part of my reality...& part of my life. I once said that I would not make 'My Heart's Home' all about cancer...and I found that hard not to do... since cancer became an uninvited, unwelcome guest in my life who threatened to take over unless I gave it a place and set some boundaries. Attempting to ignore its existence only gave it more power to wreak havoc as it threatened to dismantle the interior of my life while I struggled to keep it hidden in the shadows. So here I am writing this new blog.

But everything exposed by the light becomes visible and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. Ephesians 5:13
Wow...According to that scripture (which is speaking of evil things that are kept in secret) If I expose cancer by dragging its sorry butt out from the darkness where it lurks, and bring it out into the Light where we can take a good look at it...Shining the Light of Christ on it......then it can produce good things...right living and truth! ( vs.9)
8) In the past you were full of darkness, but now you are full of light in the Lord. So live like children who belong to the light. 9) This light produces every kind of goodness, right living, and truth..
14) Yes, everything is made clear by the light. This is why we say,“Wake up, you who are sleeping! Rise from death,and Christ will shine on you.”Ephesians 5: 8-14

Writing about my life gives me purpose...

Romans 8:28... And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
All things...not just the good things, the fun things, the nice things in life...If we love God and are living according to his purpose...everything will work out for our good...even cancer.
I hope this blog will reflect more of the true me, as I try to live my life in the light of Christ...I am not going to attempt to fit into any clique, I have never been able to fit into cliques anyway, and always seemed to lose a piece of myself while trying. Just like the human heart that beats within my chest, this blog is a part of me...It has inner chambers or rooms where few have entered in. This is where the truth resides...no phony facade, nothing artificial added ....Only the truth will be revealed here as I attempt to shine the light of Christ into every darkened corner in my life. So feel free to join me as we take a tour through the rooms of my life...but be forewarned: I tend to re-arrange a lot!

May you find many blessings and much love here...& always remember that we are... ~NEVER FORSAKEN~

Tuesday, March 22, 2022

 Tuesday, March 22, 2022

 



 

Feeling like I should post a small update regarding my health.

Cancer remains in remission! Thank you Jesus!

Last January I had an MRI of my spine and pelvis. The reason was because of increased pain in my back, hip, and leg as well as numbness continuing in my feet. I have had most of this pain for several years, but lately it is almost continual and very severe. The pain was always because of narrowing discs and arthritic spurs and twisted vertebra.But this pain felt different.

I have several Tarlov cysts (of varying sizes) at the base of my spine. These are painful cysts that are filled with spinal fluid and wrapped around/within the roots of the nerves at the spinal column. I have had two for a number of years, but they did not cause pain or weakness until now. This condition is considered to be a rare genetic disease.

 Here is an excerpt from an article from 'Genetic and Rare Diseases information' site:

Tarlov cysts are fluid-filled sacs that are usually found at the bottom of the spine (the sacrum). They grow in the roots of the nerves that grow out of the spinal cord. Most of the time, Tarlov cysts don't cause symptoms. When symptoms occur, they may include pain in the lower back, buttocks, or stomach. Other symptoms may include muscle weakness, numbness, loss of bladder or bowel control, or sexual dysfunction. Without treatment, Tarlov cysts may cause permanent nerve damage. The cause of Tarlov cysts is unknown. They may occur because of a buildup of cerebral spinal fluid (CSF) that occurs after trauma, surgery, or a small abnormality in spine development. Diagnosis of a Tarlov cyst is made based on the symptoms and through imaging studies such as an MRI and/or CT myelogram.

I continue to receive infusions of a targeted drug to "maintain" the cancer, keeping it at bay so far.

This drug does bring my blood counts down low. It's been more than four years on this drug and finally, just in the past month or so I have my WBC and Hemoglobin within normal range! They are on the lowest side of normal, but still within that range. This is significant! Although I am still considered anemic I am not as anemic as I have been for four years!

In February Jeff caught COVID 19 and so did our daughter Samantha. Thankfully, they both had light cases of it. What was strange was that they tested positive on the exact same day and we live hundreds of miles apart! I did not catch it, but maybe that's because I already had it and didn't know? I feel pretty crappy most of the time, so I'm used to being sick. I know my WBC and Hemoglobin were still very low in February. Again, thankful for God's protection.

If you have taken the time to read through this post, I thank you!

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