Not a pretty Ribbon

 

This is October. The month of PINK. Although pretty much every person on the planet is aware of what breast cancer is by now, and can recognize the iconic pink ribbon,very few have ever seen nor do they recognize the ribbon that was designed specifically for the only type of breast cancer that actually kills its victims. The cancer that started in the breast, but has spread also to other parts of the body, most commonly the liver, lungs, bones and brain. This cancer is called Metastatic breast cancer and it is fatal. There is no cure.

A few years ago my friend and I were standing in line in a bank. It was October and there were posters adorned with pink lettering saying "Save the boobies!" Above the posters were various stuffed pink bras hanging. This was a message intended to educate people on the importance of finding breast cancer early as to avoid needing a mastectomy..or that's what I'm guessing it meant? I also remember the poor Amish man who was standing in line behind us. I felt embarrassed enough for the both of us. 

As a breast cancer patient (for life)..I felt a bit offended at this message. I told my friend that it is not as much about "saving the boobies" as it is about saving the lungs, the liver, the bones and especially the brain! That should be the poster! Lord knows a woman can live a reasonably normal life without boobies. But, well we need our lungs and brain and other organs way more.

So, that is my little rant for now. I have so much more that I could say on the subject, but it's better if I don't.

Instead I'll talk about my brain for a minute. I had a brain scan last week, and although there is no cancer in my brain, I do have something called a 'cavernous malformation' on the right thalamus. Its just over 1 cm..and it is inactive, or has "been resolved" since my last scan in 2018, That is good news, but this lesion may also be why I'm having so many nerve issues. We don't know and we are not gonna go poking around deep inside my brain for the answers. My nerve tests showed low normal results. It is assumed that I have something called 'Small Fiber Sensory Neuropathy', since that does not show up in either of the tests that were given me. 

It's a wait and see if it ( my symptoms) improve or not with more time.

God is in control and God is good.

This post was rather different than my normal post probably because it is 4 am and I have not slept yet.

I don't think anyone reads this blog anymore but that's alright, I write it mostly for me, as a way to sort through, or process the things in my life.

But to anyone who does happen across this post...

Blessings & Love

and remember, we are...

~Never Forsaken~