This is the story about the life of a woman changed forever by breast cancer.
This is my story.
From the beginning I have described this as a journey through rooms. Rooms that the Lord has gone before and prepared for me...Rooms in which I am never alone.


Why I write this blog...

To start afresh ...with a blog that shows the inside of my heart more...Who I am as a [real] person, a Christian woman, uniquely created by an Awesome God. This blog will mostly be about my life with breast cancer, anxiety, depression, and agoraphobia. Though these diseases do not define me, they are a part of my reality...& part of my life. I once said that I would not make 'My Heart's Home' all about cancer...and I found that hard not to do... since cancer became an uninvited, unwelcome guest in my life who threatened to take over unless I gave it a place and set some boundaries. Attempting to ignore its existence only gave it more power to wreak havoc as it threatened to dismantle the interior of my life while I struggled to keep it hidden in the shadows. So here I am writing this new blog.

But everything exposed by the light becomes visible and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. Ephesians 5:13
Wow...According to that scripture (which is speaking of evil things that are kept in secret) If I expose cancer by dragging its sorry butt out from the darkness where it lurks, and bring it out into the Light where we can take a good look at it...Shining the Light of Christ on it......then it can produce good things...right living and truth! ( vs.9)
8) In the past you were full of darkness, but now you are full of light in the Lord. So live like children who belong to the light. 9) This light produces every kind of goodness, right living, and truth..
14) Yes, everything is made clear by the light. This is why we say,“Wake up, you who are sleeping! Rise from death,and Christ will shine on you.”Ephesians 5: 8-14

Writing about my life gives me purpose...

Romans 8:28... And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
All things...not just the good things, the fun things, the nice things in life...If we love God and are living according to his purpose...everything will work out for our good...even cancer.
I hope this blog will reflect more of the true me, as I try to live my life in the light of Christ...I am not going to attempt to fit into any clique, I have never been able to fit into cliques anyway, and always seemed to lose a piece of myself while trying. Just like the human heart that beats within my chest, this blog is a part of me...It has inner chambers or rooms where few have entered in. This is where the truth resides...no phony facade, nothing artificial added ....Only the truth will be revealed here as I attempt to shine the light of Christ into every darkened corner in my life. So feel free to join me as we take a tour through the rooms of my life...but be forewarned: I tend to re-arrange a lot!

May you find many blessings and much love here...& always remember that we are... ~NEVER FORSAKEN~

Friday, January 22, 2016

Changing My Focus

I tried to focus in on this single red maple leaf when the bells began to loudly chime ...at the foot of the Cross in the Woods. I was overcome with emotion as I watched the people seated there stand up and turn towards the sound...I imagined the Savior's voice ringing out loudly announcing to His people that He is there with them as they pray.
(at 'The Cross In The Woods Chapel in Indian River, Michigan 2014)

Having cancer has changed me in many ways. One of the things that changed drastically is my concept of time. I don't view time the same way as before. Life is shorter than I used to think it was, therefore, I don't want to waste as much time doing things that are unnecessary and useless, and less than enjoyable.

I want to remain focused on the things God wants me to be focused on.
I have come to the conclusion (or maybe it's an epiphany) that there is not enough time to change everything about myself, so I had better at least try to change some of the things that really do not or should not be a part of my identity...and to stop wasting time trying to be someone who I am not!
One major way that cancer has changed me:...My life must be lived completely by faith that God is in control now...that the cancer will not come back or a new cancer will not show up...and if it does, God will take care of me and my family.
Every cancer patient lives with some fear about this for the rest of their lives...Only faith conquers fear.I want to remain focused on the things God wants me to be focused on.



* UPDATE* October 2017...

 The cancer is back. I am now living with Metastatic Breast cancer.
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