This is the story about the life of a woman changed forever by breast cancer.
This is my story.
From the beginning I have described this as a journey through rooms. Rooms that the Lord has gone before and prepared for me...Rooms in which I am never alone.


Why I write this blog...

To start afresh ...with a blog that shows the inside of my heart more...Who I am as a [real] person, a Christian woman, uniquely created by an Awesome God. This blog will mostly be about my life with breast cancer, anxiety, depression, and agoraphobia. Though these diseases do not define me, they are a part of my reality...& part of my life. I once said that I would not make 'My Heart's Home' all about cancer...and I found that hard not to do... since cancer became an uninvited, unwelcome guest in my life who threatened to take over unless I gave it a place and set some boundaries. Attempting to ignore its existence only gave it more power to wreak havoc as it threatened to dismantle the interior of my life while I struggled to keep it hidden in the shadows. So here I am writing this new blog.

But everything exposed by the light becomes visible and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. Ephesians 5:13
Wow...According to that scripture (which is speaking of evil things that are kept in secret) If I expose cancer by dragging its sorry butt out from the darkness where it lurks, and bring it out into the Light where we can take a good look at it...Shining the Light of Christ on it......then it can produce good things...right living and truth! ( vs.9)
8) In the past you were full of darkness, but now you are full of light in the Lord. So live like children who belong to the light. 9) This light produces every kind of goodness, right living, and truth..
14) Yes, everything is made clear by the light. This is why we say,“Wake up, you who are sleeping! Rise from death,and Christ will shine on you.”Ephesians 5: 8-14

Writing about my life gives me purpose...

Romans 8:28... And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
All things...not just the good things, the fun things, the nice things in life...If we love God and are living according to his purpose...everything will work out for our good...even cancer.
I hope this blog will reflect more of the true me, as I try to live my life in the light of Christ...I am not going to attempt to fit into any clique, I have never been able to fit into cliques anyway, and always seemed to lose a piece of myself while trying. Just like the human heart that beats within my chest, this blog is a part of me...It has inner chambers or rooms where few have entered in. This is where the truth resides...no phony facade, nothing artificial added ....Only the truth will be revealed here as I attempt to shine the light of Christ into every darkened corner in my life. So feel free to join me as we take a tour through the rooms of my life...but be forewarned: I tend to re-arrange a lot!

May you find many blessings and much love here...& always remember that we are... ~NEVER FORSAKEN~

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Am I living or dying?

Both.

It's only been five days since we've known that I have stage 4 Metastic breast cancer now.

I cannot even describe the emotional roller coaster my family and I have been on!

Where to start..I've decided I will not start back at the time of the first cancer since that is already posted about on this blog from what now seems like a hundred years ago!

Instead I will begin this new chapter..or (keeping with the theme of this blog)..This new room in this world of cancer-life with the pathology report:



It's kinda small and was a pic taken with my phone..Basicly what it says is that I have metastatic breast cancer that is hormone receptor positive and Her 2 receptor positive..It is also a grade 3 cancer which is the worst in terms of aggression.
The good news: It is considered triple positive, which means there are some targeted therapies available for treatment.
Bad news: It can NOT ever be cured. I will be in some form of treatment for the rest of my life now..at least for as long as my body can take it, and/or the treatment(s) are effective.
This could be years. That is the hope.
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4 comments:

samantha said...

I'm praying for you everyday! Just know you are not alone on this journey. Love you so much!

October 17, 2017 at 1:43 PM
~Neverforsaken~Lisa Dreamchild said...

I know you are all there with me..It breaks my heart to see you so afraid.
I promise to be open and honest about everything with you all. That is why I did this blog..but we can always talk on the phone whenever you want to.
I love you very much, my beautiful daughter!

October 17, 2017 at 5:19 PM
dreambear said...

Good night my darling friend and Precious Sister in Christ. A very intimate place to rest is beneath His warm of His wings.Love you and praying for all the Ladies in your life and the men who should know how blessed they are to be gifted with you all by the Creator all life.

October 17, 2017 at 7:46 PM
Unknown said...

Praying! We all love you ❤️

October 17, 2017 at 8:10 PM

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