This is the story about the life of a woman changed forever by breast cancer.
This is my story.
From the beginning I have described this as a journey through rooms. Rooms that the Lord has gone before and prepared for me...Rooms in which I am never alone.


Why I write this blog...

To start afresh ...with a blog that shows the inside of my heart more...Who I am as a [real] person, a Christian woman, uniquely created by an Awesome God. This blog will mostly be about my life with breast cancer, anxiety, depression, and agoraphobia. Though these diseases do not define me, they are a part of my reality...& part of my life. I once said that I would not make 'My Heart's Home' all about cancer...and I found that hard not to do... since cancer became an uninvited, unwelcome guest in my life who threatened to take over unless I gave it a place and set some boundaries. Attempting to ignore its existence only gave it more power to wreak havoc as it threatened to dismantle the interior of my life while I struggled to keep it hidden in the shadows. So here I am writing this new blog.

But everything exposed by the light becomes visible and everything that is illuminated becomes a light. Ephesians 5:13
Wow...According to that scripture (which is speaking of evil things that are kept in secret) If I expose cancer by dragging its sorry butt out from the darkness where it lurks, and bring it out into the Light where we can take a good look at it...Shining the Light of Christ on it......then it can produce good things...right living and truth! ( vs.9)
8) In the past you were full of darkness, but now you are full of light in the Lord. So live like children who belong to the light. 9) This light produces every kind of goodness, right living, and truth..
14) Yes, everything is made clear by the light. This is why we say,“Wake up, you who are sleeping! Rise from death,and Christ will shine on you.”Ephesians 5: 8-14

Writing about my life gives me purpose...

Romans 8:28... And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
All things...not just the good things, the fun things, the nice things in life...If we love God and are living according to his purpose...everything will work out for our good...even cancer.
I hope this blog will reflect more of the true me, as I try to live my life in the light of Christ...I am not going to attempt to fit into any clique, I have never been able to fit into cliques anyway, and always seemed to lose a piece of myself while trying. Just like the human heart that beats within my chest, this blog is a part of me...It has inner chambers or rooms where few have entered in. This is where the truth resides...no phony facade, nothing artificial added ....Only the truth will be revealed here as I attempt to shine the light of Christ into every darkened corner in my life. So feel free to join me as we take a tour through the rooms of my life...but be forewarned: I tend to re-arrange a lot!

May you find many blessings and much love here...& always remember that we are... ~NEVER FORSAKEN~

Thursday, August 27, 2015

Life goes on

 
It's another cool fall like day here in the north woods. The sun is shining though.
Last spring I found a nest containing two newly hatched cardinals...
The parents had entrusted me with their babies enough that
they placed the nest next to my bedroom window.
I found the nest only the day before we were to leave for
our first camping trip for three days.
Imagine my sadness when we returned to find the
nest completely empty, except for a feather or two.
Several weeks later, I noticed the fledgling photographed
above being fed by the parent cardinals...I was once
again reminded by nature, that life goes on, continuing
the cycle of life and death and rebirth here on planet earth.
By the way, I thought I had committed the 'Cardinal Sin' when I had
removed the empty nest, and shortly afterwards, witnessed
one of the cardinals searching through the bush looking for it!
Looking for the answer online as to whether cardinals reuse their
nests, I was relieved to learn that they do not.
 
Today is Thursday, which means it is our normal shopping day, which means I
awoke in a panic and have had to deal with trying to keep the anxiety symptoms
manageable. I hope to have it under control by the time Jeff gets home from work
and we leave for our 40 mile trip to Walmart. It is so strange that I actually can
handle going to that huge grocery store better than the local small town stores
here close to home. I can feel lost in the crowd at the big store, and that suits
me just fine as I can hide in the crowd of people, and draw little to no attention
to myself...at least until it is time to check out...That is when the shakes and the
sweats start, and the world seems to shrink down so small that I can hardly breathe!
The few times that I have had to undergo this torment alone, without my Safe person
(either Jeff or daughter Sarah) I felt as though I might just evaporate into a puddle of
quivering nerves and cold sweat! Thank the Lord Jeff understands the importance of
him going along with me on these weekly shopping excursions.
 
 
 


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